Define who I am [unfinished]
Define who I am with the use of exceptional insults and adamant conviction. Humiliate me in public and arrange me to the bottom of its hierarchy. Steal without repercussion until I can no longer afford to be a victim.
Let me inspire feelings of either loathing or apathy, so that my only experience with love is its yearning. Let those who are close betray me.
Hinder me with exhaustion by interrupting sleep with stresses and anxieties. Combine your efforts with others so it is overwhelming for one to oppose. Remove freedom and choice by asserting your will over mine. Fulfil none of my hopes and leave my purpose unfinished. Inflict harm, intentionally or incidentally, until I am impaired or dead. Make me inordinately weak so I may be incapable of fighting back. Wring me for screams that I hate my own life.
Offer no apology or help. Have no compassion. Give no consolation or mercy. Feel no regret. Show no approval or praise.
Be unbearable. Be irreparable.
Strip me of confidence, I am not a coward that needs its help. Do not dissociate yourself, so that I may always meet you with courage. Do not rest or let me recover, so that I may always endure. Do not celebrate my incompetence, as I will demonstrate my commitment. Resist so I may exercise strength. And when you have finally brought me to tears, know it is my battle cry. If god is my saviour, than I pray to suffer a while longer.